Resume my blog...

The very first thing I must say it out loud before I ever forget: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, this year is belong to the rabbit, according to Chinese tradition. Oh, gosh, when the goat year comes, I m getting older and older then, 1 cycle is 12 years, if you undergo 2 cycle, that means you are 24 years old, congratulation, you are no longer an adolescence, an adult instead.

This year I went through an unusual new year holiday, I m doing my assignment in my hometown. What to do, since those stuffs are big big size and I cannot find any mood or motivation to finish up everything before holiday… I m terrible, I online a lot, watching movies a lot, I m dead man if the project needs to hand in 2 days after tomorrow.

Recently, I read something, quote “ They have always related as an empire to poor countries… Nothing has changed” nice cha! By staring at these words, I suddenly recalled of the lectures I used to attend, namely “bottom billions”. Well, c’est la vie, this is how the earth circulate, rich people gets richer, poor people becomes poorer… Haha, guess what, if I don’t get poor, how can you get richer, this scenario let me think of the spring balance. Imagine that you have two 500g mass block, you put in 2 sides of balance, it’s equal mass, square and fair enough. Next, you have only one 1kg mass, and you put it in one side, 100 percent decline to the heavier side… Got that, what I mean is the money or wealthy in this world is limited and invulnerable, thus we all share the scarce financial sources.

I m spending my 1^st day of new year in my home, slept a lot, very impressive. Woke up at 8am something, took a nap at 10 until 11 something, fell asleep again in the evening 5 until 7pm. Then, having dinner… what a life, yea…

随 便

今夜窗外下着雨，无雷声在耳际隆隆。自在的日子，太过写意反倒会让人养成一种懒怠的习惯。我想在夕阳斜射的沙滩上印上我的脚印，感受脚趾周遭的柔沙被我施力而下陷。纵然那浪会烫平足迹的纹理，至少它曾经印证我到此一游的事实。我想在大床上躺上整天整夜，纵使辗转难眠又何妨，纵使旁人说我浪费时间，我亦一笑置之，脑海随时勾勒出我要的虚构画面。我想我想…我想这是白日梦，暂时并不能规划在梦想里头。

我想要一个理想化的世界，人是为学问而念书，而非为考试而读书。谁叫这世界统统都是用成绩作为量尺，看人先看成绩，搞得人心惶惶，为啥！是以，我下定决心，来到大学就是不断地学习，如萍池说过，不要浪费资源，哈，我想忙一点也是为了以后的生活。在这十天呆在家中复习，偶尔上上网，睡觉逍遥，心中亦开始谋算未来，制定考完试后的时间表。想要做一个有品的懒人，最重要就是要有计划，呵呵。

最近常看见有人爱引用张爱玲故事里头的名句，具体的我可能记得不好，大概意思：“在千千万万人海当中，忽然间，你我的眼神在那瞬间对上了，千言万语在心头盘旋着，心在交织着，可是说出口的一句话却是：原来，你也在这啊。”这到底是心有灵犀的一句话，还是划出有缘无分的隔阂。

千言万语只能心头藏，幻化一句祝福

分不清到底是绿洲抑或海市蜃楼

蝴蝶双飞，我羡；劳燕分飞；我惜

浓雾散不开，只能雾里看花

一首诗，能不能美化那离别

一首歌，鬼魅般的嗓音，唱到后来哑了

会不会只剩下抽泣声？！！！

屋外的雨，山间的云，太自在

一辈子，只为了那瞬间

只为了守候那羁绊

Tomorrow, 8th November 2010, maybe it is not a BIG DAY for everyone, but it do means something for some students... I'm not involve in tomorrow BIG EVENT yet, though 11st NOVEMBER instead... Haiz, not really know what the hell am i doing right now, posting a blog!!! MAN, u must be kidding, whole world fighting hard with the time to be in front of the time, to be not left behind it, but i m blogging...
"WHAT THE HELL!" quote of one of the friends, Yuet Yang, he used to say it A LOT. When i mean a lot is very frequently he say, several time per day, sometimes even several time in a sentence.

What things need to worry, NOTHING
What things no need to worry, THOSE THINGS U DY KNEW THE RESULT
When u need to be worry, THERE ARE 2 ANSWER:
ALL THE TIME, die jor lo, quote from LYDIA PANG
NEVER...mind la, still got second chance wat

GOOD DAY, WORLD
HAVE A GOOD GOOD NIGHT!!! 

Randomness

It's been a long ago i didn't update my blog, guess it already rusting if it possesses metal characteristic. I just felt my eye lids were dropping down no matter how hard i stare at the screen or the word lines. This is annoying la ever since i checked my eyes but still my eyes get tired easily. Oh, gosh!
I use to like pop song but i don't know why i start convey my hearing taste to the classical songs and also the musical instruments performance. Listening to the Cannon performed by Pachelbel, i heard the lyrics flow through my heart softly and hit it as the lyrics climb up to the climax and fall down slowly and eventually return to the silence. Suddenly, i think this is the touching way it should be. Bravo!!!
Also, listened to the Croatian Rhapsody and Victory performed by Maksim, the one who showed me that people can play piano at that unbelievable speed, but i suppose it needs a lot energy, no wonder those performers need a mid-break after few songs and get all wet even there are air conditioner supply in the odeum. But i like the strong feeling as the music goes around, but his "flight of the bumblebee" really heard my ear because he mimicking the bee buzzing. It is totally different from pop songs.
Hehe, i guess i talked too much bout the music already. Hope that no people said i am an old man lo. I had came across that people kept asking me why i listen to the lullaby. Come on, the lyrics is soft and sentimental-type, doesn't mean it has to be lullaby.
Hereby, I want to emphasize on the fact that i hate rock song so much. Well, light rock is acceptable, too rocky, thanks but no thanks, hurting my ear, reduce my hearing, done nothing good. The worse part is music manipulate one's emotion, right, u can tell what i m going to say next, people gets high when rock, but not in my room when i am all alone.But i can accept R&B type wan, but i guess this kind of song use up a lot of background music to sugar up the song, this kind of song hard to sing, for me, my tongue tied up together whenever need to rap. Yet, i like these kinda music.
Jazz type music is my favorite too, it is awesome seeing people playing saxophone. The music flows out seems very romanticism. I keep on imagine in the brain the ball begin with the music on, people dancing, cocktail party, the light is dim but still can easily figure out the floor and the shadow. All moving shadow everywhere creates a romantic atmosphere. Why am i sound like a first awakening of love girl, don't get me wrong, i just voice out my imaginary figure nia...
I guess i shall give it a stop now, i really talk whole post of music. Hmmm, i never thought that i can easily talk about the topic i m really master at it, just dabble a little bit in it. Maybe i should change the title, i wondering what i m gonna talk in the next post....

学姐学长，直属？直系？旁系？

我想，在大学里头华人很团结。此话怎讲？因为华人会有DIRECT SENIOR， CHINESE PRIVILEGE 咧。我接着写的东西决无揭发任何人的隐私，明鉴。
尚记得有天晚上，一阵电话铃声响起，来电显示一个陌生的号码，我那时虽觉疑惑，但觉得是我期待着的电话。二话不说按下接听键，果然，一切如我所料。我步行到那里，学姐位居不高，省了我搭电梯头晕症。找到了房门，我敲了下门。门开了，一张年轻的脸怦然出现，我的瞳孔开始收缩，暗自打量眼前人。
无可否认一点，学姐你有句话是赞对了，你的笔记是整齐的，呃喝，若果与他人比较。她说，你不知道什么就问啦，因为我也是第一次做人家的SENIOR，不是说很会。我笑，心想，责任这东西不在于懂不懂，贵于肯不肯付出。赞！SENIOR，你人是很好啦，只不过听到你讲过你天天都很忙，我都不好意思待久久。不过，身为你的JUNIOR，我已经习惯性爱靠自己罢了，想来以后也不会太麻烦你，除非是十万火急的事咯。
我一直有个困扰，与你见面时，不懂该怎样称呼。若然我没记错，我俩每次都用我啊，你啊来叫对方。我要是直叫你名字，好像于礼不合；要是叫你XX姐的话，显得你很老，而且我也不愿，因为让我想起一个令我恨恨的往事。我想，我们还是维持老样子罢了。
顺带一提，我终于知道美璇口中那位怡保来的那位同校学长，人如其名，够豪了。这位是旁系学长。
至于直系SENIOR，我想说但无从说起，因为对他们认识不多，无法见解道地的叙述。不过倒是记得一些事情。话说在上次APARTMENT STAY时，有个直系SENIOR牵着我的手臂（那时的情景是拍照），那时候觉得自她手指传来的温度很低，明显感觉到温度悬殊。再来发现她人其实还蛮活跃，感觉她好像比我们还要兴奋。在这里，我记得曾经看过一句话好像是这么来着：冰冷的表面下藏有一颗灼热般的心。我想我应该认同老冯，他说我们今年的很静，哈哈，我想属羊的温柔婉约，属马的呢应该是去掉了野性，超贴的！！！

DEFINE HARI RAYA

A DAY BEFORE HARI RAYA AIDIFITRI

9^th September 2010, I’m not sure why I wanna jot down all things happen in today… well well, I gotta post my-own-designed survival kit to my studio blog, my first time online ever after I started my 2 weeks holiday until now, haha, must control the desire after come back to my home sweet home cause my mom din seems very pleasant if we keep onlining or become a cranked-prawn in front of the screen. Other than that, I feel my shortsightedness more seriously as time goes by, dun know why will I wear on the 1000 degree lenses. Recall of my medical check up in the university, it was around 9pm and I have eye test, with glasses, everything ok, 6/6; but alas without glasses, saw blurred BIGGEST E on top of other alphabets. Right, I’m nearly blind if I take off my glasses, head spinning and feel like wanna fainted are the side effects. Though, I’m not sure that reduce the online duration might help my eye from turning even worse.

I seems like get used to the stay-up-late lifestyle, almost every night I stay up until midnight or morning, because I slept early only one night, ok, the hormone disorder is very awful and damn things because I got some whelk liao… T T

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIFITRI

10^th September 2010, first time I write my diary in this kinda public holiday. Because I feel that all public holiday seems pretty same to me, the matter are how you went through 24 hours and with whose accompany.   As usual, I am here, sitting in front the screen and tying down the words. The words flow out not very smoothly, I wonder what happen to myself recently and presently. Lots of stuff, Nah, I guarantee I able to solve it; lots of problems, yes, dun wanna talk bout it, its turning my stomach, other word: disgusting; lots of disease, yeah headache a lot, dun know what is the source, Haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……………

Every happiness temporary embedding the unfortunate, seems like Pandora Box fairy tale. Men live in happiness with the present of fire, but it hurts Gods’ eye seeing men survive and become more civilized. Therefore, they hand in a box to a beautiful lady Pandora whereby the box utterly filled with the evil that is covered under closure of box without any human’s conscious. Out of curiosity, Pandora eventually opened the box and evil grab their freedom after thousands years of struggling. Back then, the world is never be the way it should be, a world we used to called it as “Utopia”.

“ World is ugly because of us, world is wonderful but it is too short or else I should say it never satisfy me no matter how long it is,” says me. Sounds like crap, [lips curved wryly].

While writing this, I remember someday Ruo Chien told me this phrase in somehow someway, “everything happens for a reason”, I suppose I was born for something. Yet, my searching proceed still on going.

Hari Raya Holiday

There will be a 2-weeks holidays after today lecture from 2 to 5pm, i'm sure tis is the most expecting moment for all of us. Well, the school that i currently studying at in short form is HBP. Recently, i wastched a short movie snap down by those seniors, i found there are few sentences pretty funny and very suitable. " we are HBP students, we are HANTU BALIK PAGI, we HOLIDAY BANYAK PROJECT, and we have HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE." Haha...


Well, I'm still in the learning process, hope that i got 2 brain so that i can absorb everything and apply it in its way. There are too many things stuff in my brain, i guess i got temporary brain jam frequently.


Right, lets not let these academic stuff destroy my holiday mood. Happy holiday to the whole world. I regard because i am just 1st year, so i still can have my time to enjoy, to be relax, to be happy. I already miss the food cooked by my mom even though i am just 9 hours far from my home sweet home.