娃娃说

sober
at this moment of bliss

body move involuntarily
as if strings attached to my veins
the other end control by some freak

if only i can break free
i can be not just a ballerina
i can go wild
Ya not kidding, there's a rock chic hide underneath pretentious mask
bring on the hard metal music
i swear i'll dance till the final light goes down

I'm gonna stand still under the shone of high candle illuminance
because i'm ready to say goodbye

Shabbat Shalom

May your day of no work be peaceful.

Judgement

There were paragraphs missing here and there

People bubbling around

getting confused every time listen to their conversation

How about cover both ears up?

Paragraphs that missing create some cracklines

what left behind then?

feeling is strong enough to reconstruct them

somehow, words do not recognize each other

author having problem in putting them together

Like the old time, tax collector strolling down the streets accompanied by a German's sheperd

the odd is they collect money

but i collect story

I'd rather say story instead of memory

grey matter mixing psycho knowledge and visual observation

imagination links together to form some solid fact

not to fool intellectual

it is obvious

somehow, understand could do more harm than believe blinded

somehow, gave up is easier to take in than give in

somehow, evading eye contact open the flesh deep down others' heart

which way is right, which way is wrong

always is a subjective question

who the hell you are judging that

Drive crazy

 Ride on the beetle,

the needle on the dashboard never really got to catch a breathe

trying to break through ya limit

needless to say,

the fact too unbearable

 whenever you split out the words

I can catch nothing that

embracing me

Adjust the radio to tune randomly

sound of saxophone seeped into my vessels

sing now,

spill it all out

At last,

who aren't set the fire to the rain?

Whizzed past whatever view out there

well then

just keep on going

procrastination take over full attention

WHY SO SERIOUS?

please just cut the chase,

cut off those holy CRAP

Where is home?

there ain't any right now

who are having hallucination?

surely, not me

cause i ain't murmuring my words

nor whispering beside anyone

勉强，得来的

不是没有想过，奈经已一錘成音

未曾少听他人话过，言语间竟是如此苍白

不是没试着就这么着的相处，时至今日，数月下来，有一个想法在心里边叫嚣

这次真的不能了

我不想再试，从来不是善因，种出来的，毫无意外

真真的可悲，呵呵

我唯恐那果还会有甜，啃嚼几番，苦涩溢满舌苔，久久不散

食之无味，弃之可惜

只因不了解，方才如此，若君有心，何尝不是手到擒来？

一杯茶，半盏愁绪，思量回转处，原来已不见来时路

我回不去，亦不想回了

是心境移迁

感性与理性？

故事走到一处，名为光荣或者颓废的转折点，

文章该怎么接辑？

笔该怎么运转？

心思又该如何不会剪不断，理还乱？

宛如

行走至一个交叉路口，停驻在那里，等红灯转绿，

偏生绿灯亮起，双脚却踌躇不前，

眼神是飘向天涯之外的世界。

感性的人，像火也像水，

澎湃袭来，但也是毁灭性的，

理性的人，像冰，

每每能够在挣扎当中找到平衡点。

我说，像冰好，

冰融了，也不会如海啸般覆盖世界。

但想，像火的人也不错，

没有激情的话，哪来浪漫主义。

有一猎人猎获一鸽子，

佛见着，说：

阿弥陀佛，你让它走。

猎人说：

它走了，那我吃什么？

佛说：

他多重，我就还你多重的肉。

猎人说：

好。

猎人把鸽子放在枰的一端，佛割下自己身上的肉。

猎人说：

还不够。

佛又割肉。

如此往来，还是不够。

佛见着，往枰上跳，枰终于平衡。

佛是感性的人，

我是理性的人，

佛说：

我不入地狱，谁入地狱

我说：

为何是我下地狱？

舍己为人，这世间有几人办到，

对，我贪生，我怕死，谁人不是？

谁又敢说我是残忍了？

残忍也是一种姿态，

一个让自己立于不败之地的姿态，

一种不让俯瞰世界的姿态。

难不成你还想，

柔肠寸断了，还把一樽苦水往断肠缝处塞？

Resume my blog...

The very first thing I must say it out loud before I ever forget: HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, this year is belong to the rabbit, according to Chinese tradition. Oh, gosh, when the goat year comes, I m getting older and older then, 1 cycle is 12 years, if you undergo 2 cycle, that means you are 24 years old, congratulation, you are no longer an adolescence, an adult instead.

This year I went through an unusual new year holiday, I m doing my assignment in my hometown. What to do, since those stuffs are big big size and I cannot find any mood or motivation to finish up everything before holiday… I m terrible, I online a lot, watching movies a lot, I m dead man if the project needs to hand in 2 days after tomorrow.

Recently, I read something, quote “ They have always related as an empire to poor countries… Nothing has changed” nice cha! By staring at these words, I suddenly recalled of the lectures I used to attend, namely “bottom billions”. Well, c’est la vie, this is how the earth circulate, rich people gets richer, poor people becomes poorer… Haha, guess what, if I don’t get poor, how can you get richer, this scenario let me think of the spring balance. Imagine that you have two 500g mass block, you put in 2 sides of balance, it’s equal mass, square and fair enough. Next, you have only one 1kg mass, and you put it in one side, 100 percent decline to the heavier side… Got that, what I mean is the money or wealthy in this world is limited and invulnerable, thus we all share the scarce financial sources.

I m spending my 1^st day of new year in my home, slept a lot, very impressive. Woke up at 8am something, took a nap at 10 until 11 something, fell asleep again in the evening 5 until 7pm. Then, having dinner… what a life, yea…