I'm 19 finally. What can i do in my age? What'd i do and have done? A "UNIVERSITY" could be the best suit word to describe it. Albeit i'm here, standing in the university, step on its ground, staring at those flying birds on the sky, hope i can be that someday but in vain, i keep myself in the human structure and can never fly without machine on me.
I'm getting older everyday, i dont dare to say that i'm getting more mature from day to day because i think i made a very very mighty vastly mistake in my lifetime. I wanna alter it, but i found that you couldnt have walked pass two diverge roads at the same time.Yet, i'm sitting here finding myself depressed that you never came across. My friends told me it will get better, we all know this is kinda consolation. I'll let fate take it course, though i dont satisfy... too many rules to follow, NEWTON LAWS i'm glad i follow it everyday, nation law sometimes i spit at it.
TIME CAN MEND THINGS but NOT EVERYTHING... I seems got cancer cells duplicate rapidly at unbelievable speed, hereby time really did change things somehow but not cure it, those cancer cells poison my already-set-up mind greatly, i found myself busy for nothing, pretending i'm alright and keep on my life eventually... no one knows i'm in agony every single time i take a breathe, and i feel like suffocated, the air all seems are carbon dioxide that choke me to DEAD...

怜春忽至恼春去，至又无言去不闻。洒尽热血枯容萎，功名总是转头空。

一朝寿终应天命，草业众生掩孤坟。明哲保生求无过，落款一帖留世人。

笔锋條转轻忽重，山水痴情藏多情。纵使燕去巢亦倾，抱负长存比天高。

this is what i wrote during orientation week for all 1st year university students, i wrote it in order to pass my time in a better way than sleeping in the hall.

第一句取自《红楼梦》里林黛玉的葬花词，因为觉得写得很恬适，所以引用。

我在上游，骑舟直下，谁在下游提灯引颈盼？

我在屋外，窗内烛泪涸，是谁扶着桌沿等我回？

我在城墙外，兵戎相见，遥望墙内谁为我祈祷。我拈一把土，风吹向家的方向，快别让那人为我担心。

这是随便涂鸦而成的几句话，我不敢说它是一首新诗，因为觉得不太像。

There are friends who had been ask me why naming my blog like these, well i'm going to unveil the truth and go details as possible.

“听风牵意，凭雨寄情”这是我用于还在难产当中的故事里头地方别院的名字。我想要有听风轩，牵意居，后面一句是之后加下去的。故事大纲还在修改，是长篇的，过程挺费时。